Unlimited Walk

That second time, by the road in the rain. Watching the slipping tyres. Watching the drops in lines of three and four attack the earth. Unstopping. That time it was hopeless, no way there but to do it and persist. Get wet. Get dry. Get through it.

And this time. In that new place, by the edge of it all. Thinking about the impact it all has. The stretch goal. The targets and achievements for more and more of what? This time it is worth it? This time it is any different? And the core of the apple.. The rotten, stinking flesh that surrounds it. The real problems. The real agendas that just about get through the dirt. The ones that matter. They wait.

And it will buzz again. Like a wake up call after a wake up call. Get up. Constantly with you. Constantly checking in. In touch. Holding you. Controlling it all. Just keep yourself there. In the mix, in the firing line. It is hotter that way.

Turn it up. Here the crackle. Get inside it. You remember how this goes. The things you did and need to do. The agenda. Don’t run away with it. Let it in. Let it control or take it.

The lists of things. The next after this one which followed the one before. We remember that call. We remember that need to do without the lists.

And we think of the impact. The effect we have on a nothing world. A worthless effect. No return. No result. A Null value. This massive null value. An infinite loop. A feed machine. And we just digest the fat while spewing our resources into the mix. You wan’t sugar? You have taken it all. It is all gone now, down into that hole. That result is done. The unlimited. The unending. This machine is walking free in every direction. Following the carrot. Gobbling up the goodness and giving back squat.

What did it do?

What did you do today? Sandwiched between the walls. Cold. Listening to 50years ago and any minute now. What did you first think this morning?Watching field flies float between hats and heads on a town bound train. What did you first think between the covers?

It was a good move to set that aside. A good move to put order on that mess. A good move to concentrate on the main issues at hand.

What did you think? Floating under a shower of heat with toes twitching in the thaw. Pulling string through the holes and hats in a bag. What did you wonder?

You were late. Late up. But fed. Too warm. But not cold. Sweating. But on board. Poorer. But charged. Thinking about the tasks. Concentrating on the next hour and the one after that. Anticipating a visit. Slipping into dreams of a freedom. Thinking. What if? Checking out. In the right place.

Memories through a glass wall heading home. That is what it meant.

You did good. And you cracked you neck with a grin.